define best friends.

went to meet royden's friends just now. at adam road. were talking. and one of them mentioned that he wanted to form his own band and was looking for a keyboardist. and so i casually mentioned about yy and her being a keyboardist and being in a metal band. apparently, female keyboardists in metal bands are very impressive. he started to ask me about her, like what band she was in and all.

and then i felt very depressed. because i didn't know how to answer half his questions. like what band she is in ? i have no idea. and i didn't even know she was in a metal band until another friend of mine who is into metal and rock and stuff told me. it's like what ? i, we know her for 6 years and we don't seem to know much about her. or maybe it's just me. i realise that i have this tendency to keep talking about myself and only myself and not letting other people talk about themselves and not bothering to even know them. i'm in a world of just me me me.

i feel rather sad. because i know her for 6 years and i don't know anything about her but yet i consider her as one of my best friends. i have to hear things about her from people who barely know her. is it my fault for not trying to listen to her ? or is it hers for keeping everything to herself ? i wish i can understand her better, know her better, be there for her forever. you get what i mean ?

define best friends. i treat her as one of my best friends. but what am i to her ? this is very depressing. and no, this is not to start a bitching session on her again. i'm just reflecting. maybe we haven't been really understanding about her.