Self discovery

I have a problem with myself. I always have negative thoughts in my mind. I think the worst out of people and I vent my frustration by injecting evils thoughts about others into my mind. I'm showing the inner bitch in me. Great.

So just why can't I enjoy the simple things in life? If only I'm a retard of something, with a simpler mindset, I might even enjoy my life more.

I am screaming inside, in silent. ROAR!