i agree. i do not want to be those people who suck up and bootlick to people just so to succeed. it sucks. i refuse to do that even in this fucked up family, so how can i do it to outsiders ? i hate this world. why did this world become like this ? everything will be so simple if eve didn't psycho adam to eat the stupid apple. we don't have to bother about what clothes to buy and wear. being naked is an art.

and of course i want to be the ambitious one. i want to be at the top. i want to rule the world. i want people to look at me and go "EH THAT'S JIA, THE GREAT /insert something good here/". i want to die and have thousands mourning for me. i want to be dead and be remembered forever. but i know, that's just a dream. i'll never be ambitious. i don't even know what i want in life right now. and people are looking at me like i'm still a teenager.

okay, i've said too much.