I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY! SO HEAR ME ROAR!
in friendship, no matter how close the knit there always seem to have a crack in it. as fat boy slim would say, we've come a long way baby. yes we've certainly did. i'm going to come all out and say whatever i want to say cause i'm actually freaking pissed off. i do have a really bad temper and i have a really super low level of tolerence. i think you girls should know. but i've been keeping my temper from flaring after learning the hard way. i've lashed out at friends and lost them, i've bitched behind their backs and felt bad, i've said hurtful things that caused love ones to leave - yes i am still hurt and feel betrayed by an asshole we saw at zouk last night, and i hate the feeling. so many years have passed and insensitivity has always pounded my self worth ans sometimes i think why the fuck am i in this fucked up world but i've learn and i've accepted and try my best to change and i hope i've succeeded. i know i have. yes, i've learn to watch my sarcasm and my insensitive side. it's been on a leash. i've turned lazy and bored of telling people that they get on my nerves. i boxed it all up and i'm getting REALLY REALLY FUCKING PISSED! it's my new thing that now that i'll just let it all go once and for all.
in the past, one by one have been hated by the group. i've been hated by you all once and i'm sure at one point or another we've really got pissed off by one another. you all are not to hold a grudge after reading this post. you're all suppose to understand that whatever i'm fucking posting up is the past and for the good of our lifelong friendship. i never want to think that we'll not be attending each other's wedding, not hanging out just cause we have children or grandchildren, not being there for one another when we're old and never seeing each other after death. i hope our friendship will last for eternity and we'll still all be together with our loved ones at the end of time. so here goes, at a point we were pissed off with yun(tahan ah tahan) for always doing the dissapearing act, then we were pissed off with jia(relak ah relak) for always throwing her tantrum at us, then i don't know what fucked up reason you all hate me for (most probably cause i was a fucking chee bai) but it's all over and we should not give a fucking damn about it anymore cause i fucking don't and i will definitely whack you if you all fight about it.
i'm fucking pissed at this moment and i'm sure this is not the first time that this fucking thing has been bugging us. SOME one have the fucking nerves to actually use us as bait and it seems like even how we throw our arms wide open for this person to let it all out, this person will never be open to us. always wallowing in self pity and having so much amphathy towards herself. yes, she's a great friend. but it seems like she's always putting a guy over us and this is not the fucking first time. of course our boyfriends are important to us and we're not asking that we be first priority BUT THAT IS because we have serious and solid relationships and we have the right to fucking put our boyfriends or future spouse as our first priority. FUCK MY FINGER'S GETTING NUMB BUT I'M STILL FUCKING PISSED. it's still all not out. ok, we'll fucking understand if you have a boyfriend and then push us out of the picture, of maybe even your life cause he's going to be so important to you. we might not even meet up with you after you do have a serious relationship cause i'm sure you'll be fucking all into it.
"I" fucking find it freaking desperate and as though your sex drive is super high. every guy that comes by and that interest you, will have higher priority then us. does it mean just because your friends(us) have bfs then you're pressured to have one too? we'll never know cause you never tell us anything. everything else have fucking far more importance then us. what the fuck do you take us for? your fucking chee bai slaves? it makes me fucking dulan you understand? i don't fucking care if you're reading this cause i'm fucking dulan. i know you know who the fuck i'm talking about and i'm not the only one who's pissed about this. it's true you have other stuff to do but you think we don't have a life too? WE DO HAVE A FUCKING FAR MORE HECTIC LIFE. yes you are an important part of us and we do really sincerely care for you. the love that we give out to each other and you is exceptionally unconditional and this is why the way you neglect us and dua us really fucked us up. we're not unreasonable people, we do like irritating and stuff and act childish but please, you should know by now we're just having fun. if you're having such a bad time or need to do something that's far more important then just let us know truthfully. we're not asking for a daily account of your life but when a deal is made, fucking keep to it.
this goes to all of you. don't fucking dua. i fucking dulan when you all dua dua dua. i never say only but i fucking fucking fucking dulan one. i can laugh it off and stuff but in real fact, don't push it too far. i'll seriously blow up and when all of us start a fight and shout at each other i think it'll be the worst war. as we're all so hardheaded, i'm sure it's going to take like a lifetime to patch things up.
i think that everything we do or say, being truthful is the best. then on the receiving end, we should try to be more understanding.
yun said once, not happy just say. so we should just say whatever we want to say if we're not satisfied about something. then solve the problem together on the spot. so for this. i'm fucking going to let it all out. the next time we go out with YOU! we're going to tell you that you're neglecting us, and why the hell do we have to go accompany him. we've never ask the rest to accompany our bfs before and in the first fucking place. he is NOT your bf. he DOES NOT belong to you. we CAN flirt with him if we want to. you HAVE NO right to be jealous. we CAN BE bitchy if we want to. this is ALL OUR FUCKING PROBLEM. TREAT US WITH MORE RESPECT AND SINCERITY IF NOT WE'LL MAKE HIM DISSAPEAR! can you COME BACK TO EARTH! there are PEOPLE WHO CARE for YOU if you DIDN'T realise. we DON'T hate you but we RESENT the way you've been TREATING US. what in the WORLD'S WRONG WITH YOU!!!! WAKE UP CAN OR NOT!
dammit... i think this is the longest post i've every blogged. i'm still not done but i fucking fuck care already. i don't feel like blogging anymore. my blood's actually boiling and i'm really pissed.
you 2 are going to blog about it too. so i'll be waiting to read them. happy reading and PEACE! I LOVE YOU ALL AND I HOPE THIS GETS SOLVED SOON.
in friendship, no matter how close the knit there always seem to have a crack in it. as fat boy slim would say, we've come a long way baby. yes we've certainly did. i'm going to come all out and say whatever i want to say cause i'm actually freaking pissed off. i do have a really bad temper and i have a really super low level of tolerence. i think you girls should know. but i've been keeping my temper from flaring after learning the hard way. i've lashed out at friends and lost them, i've bitched behind their backs and felt bad, i've said hurtful things that caused love ones to leave - yes i am still hurt and feel betrayed by an asshole we saw at zouk last night, and i hate the feeling. so many years have passed and insensitivity has always pounded my self worth ans sometimes i think why the fuck am i in this fucked up world but i've learn and i've accepted and try my best to change and i hope i've succeeded. i know i have. yes, i've learn to watch my sarcasm and my insensitive side. it's been on a leash. i've turned lazy and bored of telling people that they get on my nerves. i boxed it all up and i'm getting REALLY REALLY FUCKING PISSED! it's my new thing that now that i'll just let it all go once and for all.
in the past, one by one have been hated by the group. i've been hated by you all once and i'm sure at one point or another we've really got pissed off by one another. you all are not to hold a grudge after reading this post. you're all suppose to understand that whatever i'm fucking posting up is the past and for the good of our lifelong friendship. i never want to think that we'll not be attending each other's wedding, not hanging out just cause we have children or grandchildren, not being there for one another when we're old and never seeing each other after death. i hope our friendship will last for eternity and we'll still all be together with our loved ones at the end of time. so here goes, at a point we were pissed off with yun(tahan ah tahan) for always doing the dissapearing act, then we were pissed off with jia(relak ah relak) for always throwing her tantrum at us, then i don't know what fucked up reason you all hate me for (most probably cause i was a fucking chee bai) but it's all over and we should not give a fucking damn about it anymore cause i fucking don't and i will definitely whack you if you all fight about it.
i'm fucking pissed at this moment and i'm sure this is not the first time that this fucking thing has been bugging us. SOME one have the fucking nerves to actually use us as bait and it seems like even how we throw our arms wide open for this person to let it all out, this person will never be open to us. always wallowing in self pity and having so much amphathy towards herself. yes, she's a great friend. but it seems like she's always putting a guy over us and this is not the fucking first time. of course our boyfriends are important to us and we're not asking that we be first priority BUT THAT IS because we have serious and solid relationships and we have the right to fucking put our boyfriends or future spouse as our first priority. FUCK MY FINGER'S GETTING NUMB BUT I'M STILL FUCKING PISSED. it's still all not out. ok, we'll fucking understand if you have a boyfriend and then push us out of the picture, of maybe even your life cause he's going to be so important to you. we might not even meet up with you after you do have a serious relationship cause i'm sure you'll be fucking all into it.
"I" fucking find it freaking desperate and as though your sex drive is super high. every guy that comes by and that interest you, will have higher priority then us. does it mean just because your friends(us) have bfs then you're pressured to have one too? we'll never know cause you never tell us anything. everything else have fucking far more importance then us. what the fuck do you take us for? your fucking chee bai slaves? it makes me fucking dulan you understand? i don't fucking care if you're reading this cause i'm fucking dulan. i know you know who the fuck i'm talking about and i'm not the only one who's pissed about this. it's true you have other stuff to do but you think we don't have a life too? WE DO HAVE A FUCKING FAR MORE HECTIC LIFE. yes you are an important part of us and we do really sincerely care for you. the love that we give out to each other and you is exceptionally unconditional and this is why the way you neglect us and dua us really fucked us up. we're not unreasonable people, we do like irritating and stuff and act childish but please, you should know by now we're just having fun. if you're having such a bad time or need to do something that's far more important then just let us know truthfully. we're not asking for a daily account of your life but when a deal is made, fucking keep to it.
this goes to all of you. don't fucking dua. i fucking dulan when you all dua dua dua. i never say only but i fucking fucking fucking dulan one. i can laugh it off and stuff but in real fact, don't push it too far. i'll seriously blow up and when all of us start a fight and shout at each other i think it'll be the worst war. as we're all so hardheaded, i'm sure it's going to take like a lifetime to patch things up.
i think that everything we do or say, being truthful is the best. then on the receiving end, we should try to be more understanding.
yun said once, not happy just say. so we should just say whatever we want to say if we're not satisfied about something. then solve the problem together on the spot. so for this. i'm fucking going to let it all out. the next time we go out with YOU! we're going to tell you that you're neglecting us, and why the hell do we have to go accompany him. we've never ask the rest to accompany our bfs before and in the first fucking place. he is NOT your bf. he DOES NOT belong to you. we CAN flirt with him if we want to. you HAVE NO right to be jealous. we CAN BE bitchy if we want to. this is ALL OUR FUCKING PROBLEM. TREAT US WITH MORE RESPECT AND SINCERITY IF NOT WE'LL MAKE HIM DISSAPEAR! can you COME BACK TO EARTH! there are PEOPLE WHO CARE for YOU if you DIDN'T realise. we DON'T hate you but we RESENT the way you've been TREATING US. what in the WORLD'S WRONG WITH YOU!!!! WAKE UP CAN OR NOT!
dammit... i think this is the longest post i've every blogged. i'm still not done but i fucking fuck care already. i don't feel like blogging anymore. my blood's actually boiling and i'm really pissed.
you 2 are going to blog about it too. so i'll be waiting to read them. happy reading and PEACE! I LOVE YOU ALL AND I HOPE THIS GETS SOLVED SOON.
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