it's 4.28am now and i realise why we have problem communicating. it's because our parents are parents who are strict, conservative, asian thinking, chinese value parents. I don't believe that our parents are those that express they're love openly to us even if we're the ones they love to death in the whole entire universe simply because they do not know how to express themselves.

Our fathers - they are the man of the family. they have the final say. they will never show us their softer side. have you seen your father cry? it's surely one of the rarest sighting ever and you'll be shock if you see that -like can buy 4d and win first prize. it's just that chinese man think they're macho macho and must show no feeling and look all so gung-ho. to us they're the scariest next to our mothers cause if they know any of our deep dark secrets we're gonna get a loud scolding. scolding from our fathers are scarier then beatings from the diciplinary teacher. admit to this. cause it is true.

Our Mothers - they're like superwoman. they work, do the housework and take care of us and at the same time always suffer our loud screeching screams and our lack of respect towards times. they're women so we're less scared of them compared to our fathers but we always run to them when we're in need of something that we can't get from our father cause we know she's the only woman besides his mother that can change his mind. we respect our mothers cause they're superwoman and they're the most beautiful women in the world even if they don't possess supermodel features but they'll always be the most beautiful and the best.

Our Siblings - irritating but you always can tell them anything knowing that he/she will never "pao toh" to your parents cause if they do, you can always get him/her into as much trouble as he/she has gotten you into.

Us - we share among ourselves our thoughts and feelings cause of the trust we built in this strong friendship over the years of tears, swearing, hugging, fighting, bitching, shopping, laughing, eating and so many other stuff that if i go on i will never have to sleep for the next few days/weeks. These things we did together knitted our friendship to kinship and we're the sisters we never had but wished we had. the care and love is always there but since we got our communication barrier from our asian chinese conservative parentage, we will never say it to our faces cause we're shy and scared to be labeled as "SIAO" for real... but yes in true fact we do.

Scolding and screaming and nagging - ways of how our asian chinese conservative parents show their love, care and concern.

The word "love" - is SACRED to them. is a word only to be used to us when we don't know what it means(like when we were babies or if we're unconcious). is scary cause it might mean that their baby daughters have grown up and learn to "love" a man that might "steal" her away but you know it is not true but it's a fear that parents will always have - losing their child.

why in the world am i writing all these thoughts of my down? cause, i think it's time we live in our generation and not our parents. in fact give your parents a hug one of these days, muster up the courage. instill in them communication and family bonding. it's a good feeling. trust me. i did it years ago and now my mother always tells me openly "i love you quinnie" and talks to me about marriage and why my choice of exbfs were weird and funny*super weird* and my father says "be good" or "you want to order kfc?" and jokes around more openly. there are still topic that are sensitive to them so give them time to open up(like sex, marriage, MONEY, sleeping and not doing anything with the opposite sex - eg. chalet same bed, technology - cause they're still slow la). i still have the same respect for my parents in fact i respect them more then when they were always scolding me for things i did wrong but never want to admit that i'm wrong.

my main point is, we should start communicating cause communication is the key to a successful relationship and a successful and fulfilled life.

*note - this has nothing to do with mass communication*

written for: TAN XI JIA & YE QIAO YUN my 2 best friends in the universe.

from: QUINNIE LOW SHU QUIN your other best friend in the universe.

(quin b (TM) - anyone caught reproducing this material shall be sued for US$1,000,000. please seek consent if you want to republish any material written by Quinnie Low)

ah..nothing to do..u all watching tv..i shall tell u all wat happened just now on my way back..

I was walking out to catch a cab with my colleague and there were no cabs. damn sianz. we walked on and after some time, saw a cab in front. We flagged for it. no response. wth. We started to feel pissed off. (got business also don't want..irritating) then we decided to walk further up, to make sure he can SEE us. We flagged and flagged like siow charbors and still no response. RAHHHHH! We were on the left side of the road and the cab is on the right, so last resort, my colleague decided to walk over. In this way, there's no way he cannot see us rite? ok..this is the most ridiculous part..Guess what happened? He u-turned..ok..so we tot he's decided to to pick us up..BUT NO...he u-turned and turned OUT..wth!! damn angry!! i've never seen this kinda thing happening b4 and it is actually happening here! eh..to ME!

aiyah..dowan to blog alr..u all are staring at me..haha

okay, i don't know the whole story yet. maybe tim has his reasons for leaving her there. but if he doesn't (which i seriously it is in this case), he's a fucking asshole. ball-less creature. enough said. he is not nice anymore. he just wonderfully destroyed the mr nice guy image i had of him. ASSHOLE. i am going to scold him. but of course, if he really had a reason (which i really doubt the possibility), then i'll take back all i said about him above.

my left eye is very swollen. i look like an alien. i am still well and alive after the operation. i need to go back for another. God bless me.

ok. this is what's going on. yy was waiting for us outside zouk. TIM LEFT her alone waiting there and at 3.20 i called her. she sounded damn irritated and then she started crying. she said she wouldn't leave until she see us and we won't leave until we called her. that's how pissed she was. i think it's a communication problem that she has. she doesn't know how to express herself in other ways other then anger. anyways, ya zouk was fun ;p sad that we had to leave early but jia's having an operation tomorrow. so we went home early :| *BURST INTO LAUGHTER*

ok anyways, yy was REALLY REALLY PISSED. i guess it's time to just let her know what we feel and think. she's coming to meet me at joo seng market now so i'm going to meet her in a few minutes. wah lau the feeling is like going to meet a boyfriend that u just broke up with. jia lat jia lat jia lat i just hope she wouldn't scream at me or cry later i'm going to go nuts u know. aiya... i think it's better to settle it also la. i know this thing is driving us up the wall and driving our bfs nuts. they think we're mad and immature. and our anger have hit a certain level of annoyance. it's becoming annoying and irritating. daryl said... aiya u all go solve it or just fuck it la. why the hell you girls so troublesome. HMPH! guys... never understand how we girls work. so for now, PI day, out of the way. i'm going for confrontation now and i'm not feeling well ah. ah crap... ok ah tomorrow i'll update u all. and i hope it will be solved TONIGHT and we'll stop our bitching. yes yes.

ok wish me luck. =x

i was thinking, if i start a business. want to join me? then we wouldn't have to worry so much about schooling and what to work as. but seriously we need a few days to sit down together and plan things out. if want faster say. and be serious about it cause if want i won't further my studies. and i hope we can come up with a BRILLIANT idea!

what business? i don't exactly know yet... but i hope it will expand to something big.

Yes. I've been thinking of further studies abroad though i dun mind singapore. But cashflow is a big problem for me now..that's y i decided to work 1st..

tell you the truth. Working is not that bad actually (though it sucks at times..i mean all the stupid OT and stress i have to handle..haiz) But all these actually is a stepping stone for you to know how the industry is like and i personally think its better to gain some industry experience 1st before thinking of studying. think of it..if by the time u graduate..you will be like 24? wah..that time u are considered fresh into the industry and you have to compete with those younger fresh grads...tough ah! On the other hand, if you have some job experience, the chances of you getting a job is higher..(i think). But I'm sure there are alot of other factors the employee will consider when choosing the best candidate then just the job experiences and qualifications.

Tell me the truth. You want to study cos u want to avoid working so fast rite? cos i feel that way at times.

You seriously don't to work in the IT industry at all? totally not interested? Programmers' pay is good ley..higher then normal designers..hahaha..anyways, i think with ya dip..u can take degree and higher dip course. just try searching..let's do it one day? (tell u sth..i actually tot of studying at vancouver! haha)

oh, I sorta tried doing some calculations and don't think what im earning now is sufficient for my studies. Studying locally is alr a big prob. haiz..maybe we shld go check out those agencies that quin recommended us the other time..this sucks big time! NO MONEY!!!

Anyways, think carefully. If not you will be wasting your time again (and you know youth is precious) bleh. I think its time we all shld start to think what we want to achieve and to do. come out with a list or sth. i know you did that in ya blog..but this time ard..do it 2gether? ah..crap..heh..back to to work..blog laters..


Missya gurls!

yun ah, are you considering continuing studies ? i am thinking of continuing studies leh. but no money. don't want to ask parents to pay. how ? thinking of nafa or tmc. but what's the use of having another diploma when i already have one ? i feel that i've wasted 4 years in tp. cause i am so not interested in IT stuff anymore. programming bores me. feeling so sians. because i have no idea what i want to do with my life. bleh bleh bleh.

super dissapointment. i shall stop here before i fire up.

you're a down right dissapointment (FULLSTOP)

Something for you all to think through..


1. Faith is the ability to not panic.

2. If you worry, you didn't pray. If you pray, don't worry.

3. As a child of God, prayer is like calling home every day.

4. Blessed are the flexible, for they shall not be bent out of shape.

5. When we get tangled up in our problems, be still. God wants us to be still, so He can untangle the knot.

6. Do the math. Count your blessings.

7. God wants spiritual fruit, not religious nuts.

8. Dear God: I have a problem. It's me.

9. Silence is often misinterpreted, but never misquoted.

10. Laugh every day; it's like inner jogging.

11. The most important things in your home are the People.

12. Growing old is inevitable; growing up is optional.

13. There is no key to happiness. The door is always open.

14. A grudge is a heavy thing to carry.

15. He who dies with the most toys is still dead.

16. We do not remember days, but moments. Life moves too fast, so enjoy your precious moments.

17. Nothing is real to you until you experience it, otherwise its just hearsay.

18. It is all right to sit on your pity pot every now and again. Just be sure to flush when you are done.

19. Surviving and living your life successfully require courage.The goals and dreams you're seeking require courage and risk-taking. Learn from the turtle; it only makes progress when it sticks out its neck.

20. Be more concerned with your character than your reputation. Your character is what you really are, while your reputation is merely what others think you are.

i wan to be a PI..for at least a day..hmmm...

suppose to meet yy in the morning to go east coast to watch sunrise and eat breakfast. i think she fell asleep la. so i talked to tim til about 5.45am then i went to do my report. anyways, i am sick and tired of this thing so let's just don't give a fuck about it until it blows up again.

daryl finally booked out in the morning around 11 but i haven't met him yet. as usual he'll go home to his family and his computer first. YES I'M JEALOUS! i want to be the first one to see him when he comes out of camp. blah... anyway not that bad la, he's coming to pick me up so might as well stay home.

my parents went to malaysia already. they'll only be back on wednesday/thursday. so my house's gonna be empty. anyone want to stay? stay ah...

i feel sick. Not physically, but sick and tired of what has been going on for the past few days. Pissed? Not quite. I think i'm just tired.

Having not been sleeping well too. But heck. I did not regret meeting you gurls till late night though i have to work the next day. We had fun. No. We SUPPOSED to have fun TOGETHER even since dunno when on Wednesday. By things just ended up what we did not want to expect. AGAIN! As i was saying, i think its a curse. We can never hang out together, just the 4 of us. Can you all remember when was the last time only 4 of us hang out together? I can't. Anyways, I'm sorry for all the disappearing acts last time. I'm trying now my best to meet up whenever i can. Just forget abt the past. We don't hate each other anymore, so don't hold any grudges.

Quin is right. We've really come a loooong way. We've been together since sec 3 till now which is almost 6 years. I really don't want any stupid incident or someone to kill our relationship. I'm not pissed now. I hope we all can cool down and 4get abt this matter. Now what has to been done is done. Everyone knows what is going on. I had did my part telling you how we felt and now its up to you how you gonna handle the whole thing. I quite unhappy at the way you reply. You think by not meeting him anymore will solve the problem. You kept thinking HE is the problem. You kept saying "i dunno". If u are so unsure abt the whole thing, I think u shld start sitting down and asking yourself what do you actually want for yourself. The past doesn't matter anymore. What matters is the present and the future. So no pt thinking abt the past. Its ok to walk slow. But never walk backwards. What Jia said is true. If you mind the past, then why didn't you think before doing whatever you did? why start worrying now?

We care for you. We treat you as a good friend and i hope you treat us as yours too. Just rem what i'd told you.

i went to bed pissed. i woke up more pissed. i don't understand how a person thinks that she has the right to lash out at her friend even when she's in the wrong. trying to turn the situation around and make us apologise instead? dream long long. don't blame it fully on him you have yourself to blame too. and what does a promise actually mean to you? something to be broken? you promised to go on home, but you went somewhere else instead. not even having the right state of mind to tell one of us you're not going home making us all worry what the hell happened to you. i guess our genuine concern has got no value. i think you deserve a slap on your head just like the penquin in the clip. damn i'm pissed. if daryl's going to get confined this week, i'm surely going to be FUCKING FUCKING FUCKING pissed.

i am rather pissed. it is VERY obvious that she is into him and he is too. maybe not as into as her, but still got abit. if not why the hell will he want to go can cafe alone just to wait for her to finish work ? weirdo, yes very. and so if she is already so into him, until she didn't notice that we were walking at the back and all, then why is she still so afraid of whatever ? yes, everybody has their own past. but it is past. over. no more. what's more important is the present and future ain't it ? stop living in the past. if she minds her past so much, then why didn't she think before doing whatever she did ? why start worrying now ? i don't know. i am rather irritated by this whole thing. and i want to sleep. but it is damn freaky hot now and the stupid renovation is IRRITATING. and i just can't stand the part when she said she doesn't want to be the only one to contact him. THEN WHAT ? MAKE USE OF US TO CONTACT HIM AND ASK HIM OUT ? SO THAT WE'LL BE SEEN AS THE DESPO IS IT ? damn irritating. so what if quin knows him the same day as her ? i'm sure quin has her own life and friends too. i am feeling very used here, if you get what i mean. and last night, she kept asking us to flirt with him, don't know for what. very irritating. can't we just have a outing together ? without him for once ? is it so difficult ? nevermind nevermind nevermind.

okay, that was a rather fierce post. haha. and urm just in case you all going to think that i dua right, just to inform you all. i don't think i can meet next week. cause i might be removing my wisdom teeth on thursday morning. so means no zouk on wed. means no trying to find my cute sexy butt guy (royden thinks he's gay cause i told him he dance like want to do his friend mwhahaha). and then i think tuesday i should be working. monday can lah. and oh yah, extracting of wisdom teeth and minor surgery cause my bottom wisdom is half buried in the gums. so irritating. and then my dentist say might have swelling. i think i will have. the last time i did the minor surgery, my face very very swollen. so yah don't think can meet next week. then about the you-know-what thingy. i'll comment about it later. abit brain dead.

I HAVE SOMETHING TO SAY! SO HEAR ME ROAR!

in friendship, no matter how close the knit there always seem to have a crack in it. as fat boy slim would say, we've come a long way baby. yes we've certainly did. i'm going to come all out and say whatever i want to say cause i'm actually freaking pissed off. i do have a really bad temper and i have a really super low level of tolerence. i think you girls should know. but i've been keeping my temper from flaring after learning the hard way. i've lashed out at friends and lost them, i've bitched behind their backs and felt bad, i've said hurtful things that caused love ones to leave - yes i am still hurt and feel betrayed by an asshole we saw at zouk last night, and i hate the feeling. so many years have passed and insensitivity has always pounded my self worth ans sometimes i think why the fuck am i in this fucked up world but i've learn and i've accepted and try my best to change and i hope i've succeeded. i know i have. yes, i've learn to watch my sarcasm and my insensitive side. it's been on a leash. i've turned lazy and bored of telling people that they get on my nerves. i boxed it all up and i'm getting REALLY REALLY FUCKING PISSED! it's my new thing that now that i'll just let it all go once and for all.

in the past, one by one have been hated by the group. i've been hated by you all once and i'm sure at one point or another we've really got pissed off by one another. you all are not to hold a grudge after reading this post. you're all suppose to understand that whatever i'm fucking posting up is the past and for the good of our lifelong friendship. i never want to think that we'll not be attending each other's wedding, not hanging out just cause we have children or grandchildren, not being there for one another when we're old and never seeing each other after death. i hope our friendship will last for eternity and we'll still all be together with our loved ones at the end of time. so here goes, at a point we were pissed off with yun(tahan ah tahan) for always doing the dissapearing act, then we were pissed off with jia(relak ah relak) for always throwing her tantrum at us, then i don't know what fucked up reason you all hate me for (most probably cause i was a fucking chee bai) but it's all over and we should not give a fucking damn about it anymore cause i fucking don't and i will definitely whack you if you all fight about it.

i'm fucking pissed at this moment and i'm sure this is not the first time that this fucking thing has been bugging us. SOME one have the fucking nerves to actually use us as bait and it seems like even how we throw our arms wide open for this person to let it all out, this person will never be open to us. always wallowing in self pity and having so much amphathy towards herself. yes, she's a great friend. but it seems like she's always putting a guy over us and this is not the fucking first time. of course our boyfriends are important to us and we're not asking that we be first priority BUT THAT IS because we have serious and solid relationships and we have the right to fucking put our boyfriends or future spouse as our first priority. FUCK MY FINGER'S GETTING NUMB BUT I'M STILL FUCKING PISSED. it's still all not out. ok, we'll fucking understand if you have a boyfriend and then push us out of the picture, of maybe even your life cause he's going to be so important to you. we might not even meet up with you after you do have a serious relationship cause i'm sure you'll be fucking all into it.

"I" fucking find it freaking desperate and as though your sex drive is super high. every guy that comes by and that interest you, will have higher priority then us. does it mean just because your friends(us) have bfs then you're pressured to have one too? we'll never know cause you never tell us anything. everything else have fucking far more importance then us. what the fuck do you take us for? your fucking chee bai slaves? it makes me fucking dulan you understand? i don't fucking care if you're reading this cause i'm fucking dulan. i know you know who the fuck i'm talking about and i'm not the only one who's pissed about this. it's true you have other stuff to do but you think we don't have a life too? WE DO HAVE A FUCKING FAR MORE HECTIC LIFE. yes you are an important part of us and we do really sincerely care for you. the love that we give out to each other and you is exceptionally unconditional and this is why the way you neglect us and dua us really fucked us up. we're not unreasonable people, we do like irritating and stuff and act childish but please, you should know by now we're just having fun. if you're having such a bad time or need to do something that's far more important then just let us know truthfully. we're not asking for a daily account of your life but when a deal is made, fucking keep to it.

this goes to all of you. don't fucking dua. i fucking dulan when you all dua dua dua. i never say only but i fucking fucking fucking dulan one. i can laugh it off and stuff but in real fact, don't push it too far. i'll seriously blow up and when all of us start a fight and shout at each other i think it'll be the worst war. as we're all so hardheaded, i'm sure it's going to take like a lifetime to patch things up.

i think that everything we do or say, being truthful is the best. then on the receiving end, we should try to be more understanding.

yun said once, not happy just say. so we should just say whatever we want to say if we're not satisfied about something. then solve the problem together on the spot. so for this. i'm fucking going to let it all out. the next time we go out with YOU! we're going to tell you that you're neglecting us, and why the hell do we have to go accompany him. we've never ask the rest to accompany our bfs before and in the first fucking place. he is NOT your bf. he DOES NOT belong to you. we CAN flirt with him if we want to. you HAVE NO right to be jealous. we CAN BE bitchy if we want to. this is ALL OUR FUCKING PROBLEM. TREAT US WITH MORE RESPECT AND SINCERITY IF NOT WE'LL MAKE HIM DISSAPEAR! can you COME BACK TO EARTH! there are PEOPLE WHO CARE for YOU if you DIDN'T realise. we DON'T hate you but we RESENT the way you've been TREATING US. what in the WORLD'S WRONG WITH YOU!!!! WAKE UP CAN OR NOT!

dammit... i think this is the longest post i've every blogged. i'm still not done but i fucking fuck care already. i don't feel like blogging anymore. my blood's actually boiling and i'm really pissed.

you 2 are going to blog about it too. so i'll be waiting to read them. happy reading and PEACE! I LOVE YOU ALL AND I HOPE THIS GETS SOLVED SOON.

morning gurls! i'm sure u you are still in bed now. Anyways, just wanna say sorry if i woke u up or sth..don't mean to..

was thinking about what happened yesterday. Yes..i was kinda irritated and pissed off over the whole thing but i don't want our relationship to worsen because of this. i dowan the same thing to happen again. So..we shall not avoid. We shall work sth abt it. but for now..still stick to plan..=Þ

Will blog later..(haha..suddenly thinking abt the "cuteboy")

yesterday, i realise that i'm not the only one to dislike someone (A) working in dome. today i realise that there are more people who dislike him. but some very busybody (B)decides to go and tell the manager that i dislike that person. and so i'm sure soon enough, everyone working in dome will know that i'm unhappy with that particular person, make that 2 person now. and yes, i know that A is the supervisor or assistant supervisor or whatever. but so what ? i hate the fact that he always like to ask people to do this and that. and this shit started before he became a supervisor. it's damn irritating. especially last night, i worked 10 hours damnit. and i was so hot. all he know how to say is "tonight, i want everything fast fast finish ah". YOU WANT FAST FAST FINISH THEN FUCKING HELP LAH. and so i asked for last orders, i sent out all the bills. all he has to do is to stack chairs. okay, i know stacking chairs quite tiring too. but the least he can do is to try to help clear the tables right ? i wanted to start wiping the tables and he told me that one later do, clear tables first. and then he disappear to God knows where. and so I FUCKING CLEARED THE TABLES AND I HAD TO FUCKING WIPE ALL 50+ TABLES BY MYSELF. i have no idea where he was. and then after this, I HAD TO FUCKING SWEEP THE FLOOR. it's like i'm closing outside myself. all he do is to stack chairs. it's damn irritating. and i'm not the only one who feels this way about him. and so 2 of my colleagues were talking about him just now, then i go and kpo join in. and then B comes along and heard our conversation. and then he go and kpo tell the manager. i mean like wth. then i kena asked by the manager. i think next week when the operation manager is back, i'll kena ask again. and then A will come and talk to me. YES I AM VERY UNHAPPY. i feel that he's abusing his power, to ask people to do this and that. and yes, i dislike people asking me to do this and that. but i understand that sometimes busy mah. other people also got ask me to do things. but what A did is really too much. and you know what made me fucking pissed last night ? i was sweeping floor and he just stood there to watch. like wth. and then ask me sweep here sweep there. why not he just fucking sweep it by himself then, since he doesn't trust me to sweep it ? and then i arrange all the table menus, want to keep in the cupboard, he say don't put first, he want to check first. next time, he should just do everything himself since he thinks he's so perfect and everyone else is going to something wrong. fucker. i hate him i hate him i hate him. and yes, when the operation manager asks me about it, i'm going to say everything out. i have enough. i don't fucking care even if he has worked there for a thousand years. and so what if he is a supervisor ? he has no right to do this. he is not God. he is not perfect.

i agree. i do not want to be those people who suck up and bootlick to people just so to succeed. it sucks. i refuse to do that even in this fucked up family, so how can i do it to outsiders ? i hate this world. why did this world become like this ? everything will be so simple if eve didn't psycho adam to eat the stupid apple. we don't have to bother about what clothes to buy and wear. being naked is an art.

and of course i want to be the ambitious one. i want to be at the top. i want to rule the world. i want people to look at me and go "EH THAT'S JIA, THE GREAT /insert something good here/". i want to die and have thousands mourning for me. i want to be dead and be remembered forever. but i know, that's just a dream. i'll never be ambitious. i don't even know what i want in life right now. and people are looking at me like i'm still a teenager.

okay, i've said too much.

i think you should go for it but with loads of integrity and humbly. don't throw yourself at things or become to ambitious cause it'll only lead to greed. look at daryl's mother... she slept her way up so what? she doesn't have a fulfiled life. she might be rich but she's so greedy that even with all the money she never use when she dies the money cannot go along with her and she lost a marriage and married a sisi gay who surfs porn and i think is also a divorcee and both of them are having affairs still. aiya. so when u reach for the sky, reach for it gracefully and always with your loved ones in mind.

i've been thinking alot lately so hope i didn't scare the hell out of you all.

yesterday had a talk with my superior on my way back..(he was sending me out to the station). We were talking abt how to earn more money cos i said i was broke. I hesitated for a while, couldn't think of any better ideas than to work harder so I just told him "work harder lo". Guess what was his reply? HA...."No..work smarter"

Then, it got me thinking abt working smarter..how can we work with the least amt of strength and energy and yet get the maximum results? hmm..that's tough..I don't want to be those ppl who use means and bootlicking to move their way up the corporate ladder but somehow these are the ppl who succeed..(isn't this true? or i watched too much tv? ha)YUCKS! look down on these ppl..hate bootlickers and backstabbers. Anyways, just in case you gurls are wondering whether I'm having such probs now, luckily i'm not. Quite glad to be in this company..no politics and such..(Y)

Had a short meeting just now, i shall cut the details real short...

BOSE says: (< That's his nick..Hah)
thats my vision for you 2 ..so make it happen..=)

wah..after seeing that..i damn stressed up..and guess wat my the other colleague reply?

Terence Yap says:
ok, full steam ahead

O_O okies..

So..after all these..I've a question for all of you. Would you want to work as a leading role..being ambitious and all OR you would prefer to work as a supporting role and just do ya part and be contended abt it? Go for it or got job can can alr?

I think i need to do sth abt my confidence..=|

WHAT? all of you wearing skirts???? i'm damn lupsup..tee and jeans and canvas shoes!! =| nvm..i have nothing nice anyways...

i dunno whether im staying over..if i am..got anything for me to wear the next day? i see how lah..maybe go over eus' place..

Shit! i think my period's coming!

how come yy never join our blog? sad...

XIAO LONG BAO! XIAO LONG BAO! WO YAU CHER XIAO LONG BAO!!!! muahahahahahaha...

later we'll be going zouk. ALL 4 OF US! at last we got yun to go. muahahahaha! these few weeks yun very on hor. usually she will NOT meet us or she'll leave early one. heh heh. but we must understand cause she's a working woman. hohohoho.

anyways, i'll be wearing dress. jia wearing skirt. yun what u wearing? if yy's reading this i hope you're feeling ok and what are u gonna wear?

i should be doing my report now. sian. later then do la. it's overdued anyway. does not make any difference. HOHOHO.

SEE YOU ALL LATER! oh by the way, jia's staying over.

Oops..sorry Jia..i think i take back my words on the previewing post thingie..it doesn't work..anyways, damn bored now..somemore all of you not online..bored bored bored!!

never once i adore orlando bloom and i really dun understand y he would decide to take the stupid coward role..anyways, don't care..i starting to like eric bana..haha..

Got this somewhere..
"Eric Bana puts in the best performance as Hector, the Trojan prince and the only warrior considered an equal to Achilles. Bana plays him as a reluctant hero and pragmatist, concerned for the safety of his family as he realises the very real possibility that Troy may fall. He's the most rounded character, especially compared to the two dimensional Achilles and Agamemnon." (YAY)

oh..i'm now dreaming abt the xiao long baos too! let's go there one day together!! =)~~~

feeling damn bored now. been great hanging out with you all for the past 2 nights. haha ! MORE NEXT WEEK !

ok yun just blogged so cause i'm a kepo but not as kepo as someone... MUAHAHAHAHA i shall kepo kepo blog too. i'm still awake too! yun and i didn't take the train like we were suppose to we took 162 and supposedly wanted to go to a kopitiam to eat breakfast. when we reached sin ming ah we saw a dead cat, blood by the side of the road, and puke.... so when we got to the kopitiam all i wanted to do was puke and yun was having a headache.

anyways, like always since i work differently, i think i'll tell the days events backwards which i am already doing. before that we were stoning at 5.30am at ps mcCafe after watching the 2.25am show troy. I CAN'T STAND THAT STUPID "PAAAAARISSSS" he's deaf, dumb and mute and a stupid COW! bloody hell all because of his hornyness and this other BITCH'S sluttyness the 2 heroes died. BODOH!!! BODOH BODOH BODOH! bleh...

We were at mr beans bitching before that. had yucky ice creams with brain juices. YUCKS! mr bean's getting sucky. i bought 2 pairs of shoes while waiting for yun at citilink and suntec spend so much just waiting for her. bloody hell actually she dua me then i kao pei so much until she came! MUAHAHAHAHAHA! oh ya, we planned to actually be invisible to yy's and tim's eyes but aiya... read yun's post below la. useless brats. don't even know how to hide properly... goondoos.

oh yes, i'm dreaming about xiao long bao. YUM! yun and i were like tai tais at crystal jade having out yummy la mian and xiao long bao. damn cheap ah actually... cheaper then stupid CAN cafe.

okies i think i very long winded. poooooooooooooot. MUAHAHAHA! i loved the night out. do it again sometime. oh yes, let's go take those makeover photos one day together! wee wit!

morning! guess wat? i'm still awake..very stoned now..

anyways, had a great time with you gurls jus now...love the show..love the crowd...(wee witz) =Þ

thinking back..me and quin damn stalkers..stalked until have to squat and had to smell shit..how pathetic..and that's not the worst..the worst is we are discovered even b4 we reached our target destination! ah crap..looks like we are really not cut up to be PI..nvm..practice makes purrrrrrfect!! HAHAHA! (Y)

we were like so mad..so damn crazy..jus like when we were secondary sch..as i was telling quin..its better to do nonsense stuffs now then when we are 40+++..what we've got now is youth..so dun waste it..we have nothing to lose now anyways...(urmm....yah)

anyways, i had a fantastic time jus now and somehow hanging out with u all makes me forget all abt my work..thank god we met..*HUGZ*

last thing..to jia..u know u still can preview all the posts at the same time..jus like the past?

off to watch karaoke video...wahahahahhaaha

googlism, find out what lies in your name

*yawn* i'm freaking bored. i realise that i haven't been blogging cause i'm a lazy bum. my brain's block la so don't know what to write also. oh ya, my grandma's out from operation already. she's doing ok. my father's back. my mother's still in malaysia. oh yes, have i told u how much i can't stand gillian? well, yes i can't stand gillian. suay sia get this kind of friend. like unwanted pregnancy.... get what i mean? suay ah suay.

oh yes, and i totally agree with yun on "NOT HAPPY SAY LA!" that part. cause alot of times never say ah then spoil relationships and stuff one but when u wanna say ah be more tactful. i remembered using a phrase "having you as my bf is the biggest regret of my life" to an ex bf and he never forgive me for it up to now loh. haha. but who cares about him. so since i not happy with gillian i shall say! YES I SHALL!

ok la, i'm super crappy now. hope tonight we going zouk and laugh again. MUAHAHAHA! see ya babes! *OSCULATES ALL OF YOU!*

i think i prefer the previous layout. it was more classy. and easier to use. i mean at least if i want to post a new entry, i can at least read the previous posts and know what i have posted and won't repeat myself !

i'm back..haha..think i just don't have the mood to do work..anyway, just saw jia's post..the new blogger layout is refreshing..not bad..(Y) you will get used to it..no worries..haa..

anyways, here are some links (in case u are bored)


Listen to your favourite punk songs sung in a lullaby style.
Punk Rock?

Singaporean Hip Hopper ha..

will blog laters...=)

i hate to work! FUCK!

Recently, things are not going very smoothly for some of us, but somehow we all managed to pull through..Glad that things are ok now on Jia side..*hugs* Loosen up abit k? Don't be so uptight..Enjoy ya holidays..(if not you'll regret like me..=|)

Communication is the key to a fruitful and lasting relationship..that's something i have learnt..not just between a couple..friends too..and cos of this communication shit..i've lost some friends..(i think)..so the pt i'm trying to say is.."Not happy jus say!" heh

okies..i have go get back to work...goodbye folks..

hello ! honestly i don't like this new blogger layout. it makes me confused. anyways, thanks for the concern ! me and royden are okay. he is going to be a pilot and you know i always wanted to have a pilot bf so that i can have my sword bearer wedding !

eh? What happened? y decided to go in the end? only u 3? or wat? anyways, tell us abt the msges!!

how was the show?? i just watched it jus now..hahaha..damn farnie...'i prefer sausages to tacos' =Þ

yesterday was so last minute. we canceled then we went. then yingyi puked. then we went home. very hot man. stupid weather. maybe cause i haven't bathe. hoho... ok going to watch movie in awhile. 50 first dates. best. my grandma's admitted to hospital and i'm dead worried and i can't contact my parents. dammit... i'm hot. ok ah i wanna go lie down and laze around and manja. MUAHAHAHA. i think i'm going crazy and i miss u girls alot. SEE YOU!

Girls..check this out! Can dl emoticons here...=)